Never Thought

20 years ago you could not have told me that I'd be standing here right now. 
If life could be linked to a person and seen in a flash, I would not have chosen you. 
But yet, here I stand..On mother's day. 
A woman who was never destined to give birth, stands next to her child, stands next to her daughter. 

A woman who loved a married man may have been forever marred from God's redemption and here I stand at the front of this little church. 
God called out to me in my time of wrongful and regretful decisions, he saw where love was needed and transformed my mess into a message of faith. 

I am a barren mother of four beautiful girls. 

I still recall that moment of prayer when the desire to have children left me, because God had something better in mind. 

My heart became lost in a false dream when I saw him and I was deceived, but do the consequences of my belief outweigh my benefits? 

There have been times where I have thought yes.. But as I stand, staring at my grandchildren in my son in law's church, next to my daughter.. I would say at the end of it all, no. No, they do not.